sex

The body's argument with the mind. Desire, consequence, and the comedy of the flesh.

10 works

Ding-a-fucking-ling

The phenomenology of depression

Noah Blue · 13 min read

The fact of the matter was I didn’t want to die. I’d spent a long time thinking I did, but when it came right down to it I didn’t. Any kind of life, even a shitty one like mine, was better than no life at all.

foreign exchange exposuremushroomsdeath

Fiction

For as long as he can remember, S has been on the verge of jacking it all in

Cringe

Noah Blue · 27 min read

S’s wife packs her stuff and moves out of the marital home, taking the dog with her, which is fine by S (he never did like the yappy glorified rat anyway). The day after his wife leaves him, S tells his boss he’s quitting with immediate effect.

blindnessinfidelitysex

Fiction

An introduction to A

#Surrey

Noah Blue · 10 min read

When he isn’t trampling in the fields, A reads. He reads short stories mainly, but also sometimes novels, though only very short ones. As A reads, he consumes alcohol. The two go hand in hand as far as he is concerned. The more he drinks the more he reads, the more he reads the more he drinks.

drinkingsexdogs

Wittering asides

Drivel

From the diary

Noah Blue · 70 min read

I am 44 years old and have almost no friends to speak of. I am unemployed, voluntarily so (if, that is, you believe in free will, which isn’t something to necessarily take for granted these days). The truth is I’ve had enough of paid employment, for now anyway. Luckily for me, my wife takes care of my material needs (and the dog’s).

bestivalwritingloneliness

Fiction

I am a big fat phony

Unfiltered

Noah Blue · 16 min read

I am a big fat phony. Right now, for example, I am at my desk busy tapping out an email to a colleague about something I don’t give two shits about, even though I am giving the distinct impression that I do.

existential angstclubbingdrugs

Aphorisms

Taser aphorisms

Flailing and shit

Noah Blue · 2 min read

I am not crazy enough to believe that anything I say matters, but I am crazy enough to say it anyway.

capitalismfree willsex

Fiction

Mr Two Fucks

A crime caper (of sorts)

Noah Blue · 46 min read

I have a problem. Allow me to elucidate. A certain someone, let’s call him Mr Two Fucks, has been sabotaging my work, clumsily and without guile, it is true, nevertheless sabotage is sabotage.

crimenudismdrugs

Aphorisms

Thoughts that came to me sitting on the toilet

#constipation

Noah Blue · 2 min read

A so-called great work of literature or philosophy is but the fruit body of a subterranean organism that subsists on the putrescence of other organisms.

mushroomscioranmessiah

Fiction

there is no such thing as free will

To state the obvious

Noah Blue · 13 min read

I am alone, unless you count the dog as company. A whole day with nothing to do stretches out in front of me. I make a cup of coffee and read over the story I wrote the night before. It’s about a man who lives alone with his dog; a whole day with nothing to do stretches out in front of him.

parkourkebabsboredom

Fiction

Other than my parents splitting up, nothing much has happened recently

A coming-of-age tale (mostly)

Noah Blue · 27 min read

My dad recently moved out of the family home and into a studio apartment in a rundown part of town known for illicit activities. Why that part of town, I have no idea. It’s not as if my dad is poor and has to live there. In fact, he could probably afford to live in the so-called salubrious part of town if he wanted to.

bildungsromandivorcedrugs

← All Motifs Archive